A while back I decided to visualize and manifest a relationship built on a foundation of caring, friendship and mutual respect. I specifically included in these visualizations a less sexual emphasis than previous encounters with love interests. I may have wanted to be more careful about what I wished for.
I have been dating this really wonderful man for a short while now. We have been on what I would call two official dates, with a few other meetings which included various other people. After each of our first date I got the unmistakable signals that we were both on the same page regarding our level of interest in one another. After the second date I got a very nice goodnight kiss but was still left wondering if I had just entered the friend zone. You see, the kisses are passionate and magical; the rest of the date could just as easily have been with a good friend. I know what you are thinking..."isn't that exactly what he asked for?"The answer is "almost." I haven't heard a compliment yet that would indicate any kind of flirtatious affirmative that he is interested in anything other than just hanging out. I certainly wanted to at least hear some mention he is interested in me as a man, a sexual being, as well as being interested in my life outside of sexuality. My contribution to this confusion is obvious:
I want a guy who I can have a conversation with that makes me feel good. This guy gives me that in spades.
I want a guy who rocks my world with his kisses. Again...CHECK!
I don't want someone who blurs the line between sexual attraction and sincere bonding. Could be?
I would be thrilled to have this person as a friend. He is awesome! He is very smart, kind, funny, considerate, has similar values, and is absolutely adorable! I definitely feel that if we were to move on to something beyond friends that I would feel confident that it was founded in something wonderful and respectful. Not that I want to speed things up, but rather I just want some litmus test as to whether we are friends or if he is as interested as I am in exploring further. Am I asking for too much? Am I being contrary to my visualization?

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